Intro

Me:  Is it your desire for me to lose weight?

God: Yes, because it is important to you.  I love you the same no matter how much you weigh.

Wow!  I'm taken back for a split second.

I've been waiting to here that my whole life.  I've been waiting for Mom someone to tell me that I'm loved, adored, ENOUGH regardless of the size of my capri's.  And now I'm hearing it from the Creator of the Universe.

 But will that be enough?

Really!  I'm sure you are thinking "what??? How can that not be enough?"

It's sad, I know.

But I've spent my whole adult life trying to prove it (unconsciously)  that my weight does not equate to my worth.  That the number on the scale doesn't equate to love.

I just want to be loved unconditionally.  Is that too much to ask?

The Truth Is...

I have been, well, as much as you can be my another human being.

But I'm still trying to prove it.  and not doing it very well.  Instead I'm just getting fatter and hating myself more and more.

Can I embrace God's unconditional love for me?  Now that He has spoken to me about my weight, can I let it go?  Can I lose it?

That is my journey.  The journey I begin today.  The one year journey....back to me.

A Leap of Faith: Literally

Today I am cleaning out my room...I mean, REALLY cleaning out my room.  I was praying a few weeks ago and I sensed God leading me to give away the clothes I had worn in the fall and winter of 2012.

God, that is REALLY SCARY.

But after continued prayer and discussion with my therapist, I became convinced that this was His direction.  Today, I am making that direction my reality.

In a worship-filled, house-cleaning activity, I am putting sweaters, shirts, dresses, and pants in storage bins.  They will go to consignment and I will save the check for new fall and winter clothes for 2013.

Because He says:  "You will not be able to wear those clothes in 2013".

Today is my first leap of faith since my Faith Revelation.

And I as type, The Voice of Truth, comes on the Ipod.  Coincidence?

I think not.

Psalm 37:1-6

Conditional promises - 1.  Trust in the Lord AND do good.  (be righteous - moral)  We are no longer slaves to sin.  We can choose to do right.  When we do, the condition of this promise is met and we can look to the promise.  We will dwell in the land and we will be fed.  2.  Delight thyself in the Lord.  (take great pleasure in).  We must have a loving relationship with God that goes beyond duty - loving Father that is concerned about our total well-being.  3.  Commit thy way to the Lord - to place in trust, custody, to entrust.  Doing it God's way, not our way. 

A Faith Journey

I love it when God wakes me up in the mornings with insight into our lives together.  and. I hate it when God wakes me up in the mornings with insight into our lives together..

3:42 a.m. is awful early to hear any voice - even if it's God's voice.

None the less, today I was awakened to an old, and I mean, old, song:

Prayer is the key to heaven, but faith unlocks the door.  Words are so easily spoken, but prayer without faith is like a boat without an ore.

I used to sing it with my cousin when my feet wouldn't even touch the floor from the piano bench. And, needless to say, that's been a LONG time.

I knew this awakening was for more than a walk down memory lane, so I do what I do best and started googling the word faith.

Faith, prayer, trust....three, such simple, but at the same time, such complicated words. 

Here's what God was showing me this day.....I have trust in Him only to the level that I have faith in Him.

Ouch!

I love the way that God knows us so intricately.

On August 8, 2011, God quietly instructed me to memorize James 1.  I played at it, but never really made any big attempt at it.

Today, I look at it and see that it's primary lesson is on faith.

How much time have I wasted becoming who God wants me to be because of my procrastination.

How much time....